Film and Life......

Everyone in the world has that one movie that they can watch over and over and over again because it touches their soul. One of the movies that does that for me is Avatar (yes I am well aware that statement makes me a geek to the core). I have been having some trouble understanding life and how things come into play, I have also been having trouble accepting the fact that I do not and will never have all of the answers to life's question. Which brings me to why I love this movie.

First off Jake Sully as many of you know in a Marine who lost the movement of his legs but never stopped living. That is truly a strong person. That made me realize that people should not live their lives with limitations. I don't have a million friends and I am not the most popular person in my town (most consider me odd) but I am OK with that. Watching this movie made me realize that I will find that little niche in this is psycho world where I feel like I am a part of something; just as Jake did on Pandora. My first question is taken care of.

My second thing is, shocking love. That is a very hot topic with me because I want it but can't ever seem to find it. Watching Avatar made me want a love like Jake and Neytiri. The kind of love that is more then a relationship is a bond. The first time I watched that movie I was kind of thrown by the fact that instead if "I love you" they say "I see you". Well that doesn't make sense, right? Wrong. To be perfectly honest those words to me almost mean the same thing. Let me explain because I know that doesn't really make sense. "I love you" is how people show that they care about one another, but in today's world it does not mean the same thing as it should. Today the words "I love you" get tosses around like a hackey sack that can easily be replaced by another. That is not how the words should be uses. In Avatar when they say "I see you" they are saying I see you for who you are and I would never change you; that is why I love you. Isn't that what love truly is? Isn't that what the words "I love you" are supposed to mean? I thought so and I still fully believe that. If God had intended man kind to give and get rid of love as they please he would not have allowed us to use our hole hearts when we really do love some one.

This is a message for everyone. The next time you go to say something to some one, whether it be "I love you" or something else; think about what your saying really means and how it is going to affect some one. No one should have to settle for anything other then the truth, and if a person is not willing to be truthful in what they say and do then do not waste your time on them. There is no reason to hurt yourself when there are so many reasons to just live your life with no limitations.

Imagine: Article one of Insparations

Imagination; fuel for the human soul. The ability to imagine infinite possibilities is a skill that people should hold near and dear to their hearts if they have that ability. To have an imagination mean that you have creativity and creativity can create an entire new world. Pablo Picasso stated that “Everything you can imagine is real.” Now, to some people that seems completely preposterous, but in reality it is true. Let us look at several aspects where this idea seems completely out of the question. One is in the imagination that magic is real. While the wands and wizards are not real like the world of Harry Potter there is another kind of magic that is real. Eternal youth; not physically but mentally. The one thing that is a proven fact that this magic exists is Disneyland. Has anyone ever been able to leave the part and remain the self controlled adult they were when they entered? No. It does not matter if you are 5 years old or getting ready to celebrate your 95th birthday; everyone has the magic of eternal youth.

This is just one form of magic. It can come in many different forms for other people. For me it comes in the form of music, books, love, and film. First is music. To me music is a way of expression that speaks volumes because it shows passion. I can hear a song and be having the worst day and it can completely change my perspective; the magic of change. The next is books. Books come in all different types of categories. Every category takes me on a new adventure; Maximum Ride is an adventure of danger, romance, and adrenaline; Peter pan is a story of romance, fairies, and a whole new place of adventure. Theses stories crate an escape from a normal life, the magic of adventure. Now, on to my personal favorite, love. Love is almost an entire category in itself. To be in love is a feeling that can not really be described. When a person is in love all thoughts are consumed by that special some one almost like a spell. The thought of their face makes your knees feel weak and when they kiss you the whole world just disappears; the magic of love. Lastly is film. Without the imagination that is put into writing a script, finding characters, dressing said characters, and putting on a wonderful production there would be no films in the world. I love film because they can be moving and seem so real even thought you are just watching the lives of the people on the silver screen unfold. When I come out of a movie I feel like anything is possible like what I just saw was real. That may sound sad and some what crazy but it is another escape from reality; the magic of fiction.

The world needs imagination or else life as we know it would just come to a screeching halt. When I say thins I don’t just mean the happiness factor, I mean all life. Without imagination we would have never had the wheel, computers, cell phones and all the wonderful varieties that Starbucks has to offer. Imagination makes people interesting and wonderful. This brings me to the saying, “the mind is a terrible thing to waste”, if you have no imagination then you have already wasted your mind, and most of your life’s happiness.

My Life In The Stop Lane....

Having one of those days...... you ever had one of those days where you just are not content with being yourself? Well I am. I don't know what it is but something just got me down. I think it is all this rain, but back to my day and what I was talking about. I wish there was some adventure! For me this could be a number of things. The first thing that comes to mind is m parents winning the lottery; now that is a good time =). I would wake up first thing in the morning and go get me my new Subaru Outback that I want. My senior trip would be a no brain er! I would be going to the Atlantis Resort in the Bahamas... and possible bring home a cute cabana boy ha ha! That is adventure numero uno. The second one that comes to mind is the adventure of love. Meeting the right guy, because lets face it, those who know me know that I have no luck with the guy department. Now when I say meet the right guy I don't mean I want prince charming to walk up to me in class and wonder where I have been his whole life; that is way to cliche for me and too conventional. I am a more unconventional person. I dream of having that wow factor. Now i don't mean wow factor like the guy is a super spy or anything because that is just crazy talk; I mean something along the lines of I have never met this guy before and he makes an effort to get to know me and takes me out on a date that is something totally crazy, like a hockey game, a museum, a candle lit picnic in the park, something not normal. No movies, or generic dinner dates those are over rated. I picture my night in shining armor as something a little more brash then the typical spic and span stereo type. I picture a savage hockey player, a guy with a few tattoos and maybe a piercing or two, or maybe even a dancer. Like I said, I don't do typical. And now da da da! Adventure number three something crazy that could never happen. Becoming best friends with some one totally famous. I don't know who but that would be awesome! I think shopping in crazy places and going to awesome clubs and meeting other famous people would be completely insane!

Well Those are my adventures one or two may happen ha ha but for now I am just going to enjoy my like in Kelso where nothing crazy ever happens and I will just dream about one of my wonderful adventures possibly happening.

Tennyson and love...

Every one at one point or another has heard the saying, "Ti's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all." Lord Alfred Tennyson wrote that. Now Tennyson is an amazing writer but I personally do not think that he really grasped the concept of what he was actually writing. If a person has never loved then they honestly do not know what they are missing. It is like a person never eating junk food; they know what it is and they want it but they will not understand how it tastes until they have actually had it, the same concept with love. See when a person really truly loves and then loses that love it is not like losing a favorite shirt or a favorite book. When a true love is lost, that person looses a part of them selves. We as humans spend about half of our life trying to figure out who we are, now picture losing a piece of that. It took some much time to build that one piece and now you have to start all over. That is true love. Also true love is even more then that. True love is when a person goes to bed and dreams about the one that they love but wake up to realities nightmare when they have come to realize that the warm and safe embrace is not really there. True love is when you get excited when your phone goes off thinking it might be that person. True love is when you are more excited for that special persons victories then your own and that you are more disappointed for their failures then your own.

I believe in true love with my whole heart and I know what it is like to loose love as well and I have to strongly disagree with Tennyson because with the heartache that I feel, I would rather have never loved at all. Yes, true love can actually be that strong.

Love's List

Every person and every culture believes in their "other half". I am included. The amazing thing about love is that there are so many stories about it. One of my personal favorites is the one from Greek mythology. The gods took one man and split him right down the middle; half of him was male and half was the female. These two people would search their whole lives just for the other half; and in the words of H.L. and the News, "That's the power of love!"

Thinking about all this made me think about what I see in love. Now I came to think I knew what I wanted at church camp last year. I made a list of what I want in a relationship and what I deserve. My list is a little faulty.... and it is also long.

1. A man that is kind to all



2. A man that has a heart for God



3. A man that is honest



4. A man that is loyal



5. A man that has all of his priorities in order



6. A man who can make me laugh



7. A man who is pure is preferred



8. A man who wants to take charge of the relationship spiritually



9. A man who will take the time to sit and talk with me



10. A man who does not speak to me out of anger



11. A man who is a gentleman



12. A man who sees the beauty in forgiveness



13. A man who would love my family like their own



14. A man who treats me as an equal



15. A man who shows me how much he loves me in random little ways.



16. A man is creative



17. A man that knows how to have fun



18. A man who is not afraid of my emotions



19. A man who will sit an pray with me



20. A man who will pray for me



21. A man with the right amount of independence and the right amount of dependence



22. A man that I can call my best friend



23. A man that would kiss me on the nose because he thinks it is adorable



24. A man that will call me in the middle of the night to talk to me because he had a nightmare and wants to hear my voice



25. A man who would stay with me all night if I had a nightmare just to make sure I could get some sleep



26. A man that wants to spend every waking moment with me but doesn't because he loves the anticipation



27. A man that has no problem admitting his feelings to me or anyone else



28. A man that will shout from the roof tops how he feels when he is ready



29. A man who will dance with me when there is no music



30. A man who will sing to me when there is no music



31. A man who will write poetry about me



32. A man that wants to take me or random little trips



33. A man who loves to dance, and will take me dancing



34. A man that believes that a romantic dinner does not have to cost a boat load of money



35. A man who will actually send me flowers just because he was thinking about me, and he will get the flowers based on what one remind him of me.

So as you can see I have a huge list =) and I can continue, but then I am worried that it will start turning into a work of fiction... I'm afraid I might have already crossed that line, but a girl can dream right?! If only, if only. Well I am going to head to bed now and dream about my perfect man. Because I now that no matter what happens in reality I will always have my prince charming in my dreams; he will save me from waking up tonight. =)

Mind Sweeper (the relationship version.)

Well everyone has either seen or played a game called Minesweeper. You know, the one where you click on the little squares and try not to hit a bomb. Well my most resent relationship reminds me of the game Minesweeper. First it started out great, hitting a couple of ones when he would give me cute little compliments, some twos when he would kiss my nose and tell me he loves me, and the occasional threes when he would give me cute little gifts to show me how much he loves me. Well with every good streak has to come a bomb; especially for me because I have never won Minesweeper. After the first "bomb" I was crushed and cried for two days. Well today I hit a couple of twos when I got an 'I love you" and an "I miss you" little did I know that was all followed by another BOMB! This is why I do not play video games I do not understand them.

I can officially say that I hate the game Minesweeper, because I don't do mind games. No one should play them because they give you headaches.

I am a princess and my Father is the King of Kings....

Have you ever heard the saying, "the heart wants what the heart wants"? Well my heart seems to want the wrong things. I am saying this as a newly single woman. I feel in love with a man who was my everything. I have never loved so deeply and then... Poof! There it goes. This whole relationship has really opened my eyes to a few things.

1. I have NEVER been in love like this before.

2. A man must love a woman despite what some others think.

3. And lastly, 1 John 4:18... There is no fear in love; perfect love drives out fear. Fear has to do with punishment; he who fears is not perfect in love.

That is 100% true! If you are afraid of anything in a relationship you are not only going to punish yourself but the one that you are with. This fear destroys everything; happiness, good sleep, friendships, the whole relationship will suffer. After a whole day of crying I am actually doing great. I have a new out look on life. In God's eyes I am a princess, and my heart is solely his and just on lone to another man. There for any man who wishes to have my heart has to go to God to get it and he has to treat me like a princess too. I know that probably sounds conceded but it is the truth..... I think it is time for me to turn into bed; work was long and my feet hurt. =)